Breakdown..

So I’ve spent a rather large chunk of this weekend catching up on my poetry reading. Some of my favorites include W. B. Yeats, Frost, Plath, Neruda (when I’m soppy) and Keats. I also recently picked up a book by Ondaatje called “Handwriting”. It’s admittedly a little difficult to get into..(..he’s just so tangential its hard to keep up on so many levels!) but a pleasure nonetheless. Every poem seems to show different aspects of the poet to different people. It’s a matter of perception I guess. Like art..

But to get to the point here’s the poem I liked best out of this week’s picking. Plath is outrageously vague most of the times but when she makes a point…I bloody well listen! Enjoy!

I Am Vertical

But I would rather be horizontal.
I am not a tree with my root in the soil
Sucking up minerals and motherly love
So that each March I may gleam into leaf,
Nor am I the beauty of a garden bed
Attracting my share of Ahs and spectacularly painted,
Unknowing I must soon unpetal.
Compared with me, a tree is immortal
And a flower-head not tall, but more startling,
And I want the one's longevity and the other's daring.

Tonight, in the infinitesimallight of the stars,
The trees and the flowers have been strewing their cool odors.
I walk among them, but none of them are noticing.
Sometimes I think that when I am sleeping
I must most perfectly resemble them--
Thoughts gone dim.
It is more natural to me, lying down.
Then the sky and I are in open conversation,
And I shall be useful when I lie down finally:
Then the trees may touch me for once, and the flowers have time for me.

This is from the “Collected Poems of Sylvia Plath”, a book Pooch and Rama gave me last year. It still remains a source of unending joy! Love you!

Opera Oprah...What's there?

Ok..so last night was a blast! Was Riti's brand new hubby, Kunal's birthday and boy did we celebrate! Was at this new place in GK2 called Opera (..which Ritz, in true Punju fashion, insisted on calling "Oprah", ...but well, as they say, "What's there?). Nice interiors, very wood and velvet and the food was to die for. A realllly well made shish tauk, batter fried fish with a nice tarty tartar sauce and these little melba toasties piled with mushrooms. There was also a very nice lamb kebab thingy that did the rounds. Must go there again. The DJ played retro and my feet still hurt from all that furious footwork! I've got some really cool pics which i'm going to upload at some point.. Also met up with Serious Sam after ages! Made a plan to catch up over the weekend. Really looking forward to it! Ritz was her usual "RockStar" self in a gorgeous gold corset and a verry well tailored black skirt! You rock sweetie!

Well anyways, it's almost the end of the week and I'm still in a major "dharm sankat" about the whole job scenario. Why must every decision be so painful? Maybe its just me! Oh well...more when it happens!

Happy Happy!

Just a quickie wishing long lost bestest friend Anu and far away in banglore pal Arun a verry verrrry Happy Happy! May the day and the coming year bring you joy beyond measure and looooong and thunderous orgasms! hehehehhee! Muuuuaaaaaaahhh you guys! Have a blast!

Twiddle de doo dum!

I’ve gone and taken the day off! Yesssiree I have! It is absolute heaven! I woke up at about 9 and actually forced myself to go back to sleep again! Aaaaah… the good life! I think people just completely underrate lazing around in bed. I came into office at about 3ish have so far played an hours worth of “Big Kahuna Reef”, sent a few cards, bill books and other paraphernalia in for print and (..this was the hardest!) figured out where I’m dining tonight! Now that is, by the toughest standards, a productive day! Also spoke to Nirav last night. Had this silly song in my head that was bothering the shit out of me…thanks baby…so I’ve also managed to download it thanks to Ni’s exhaustive research! So that’s all for now.

Buh bye pholks!

D-Day!

So it’s the start of yet another hectic week that I’m totally not looking forward to! I want to desperately go back to the lazy days of three months ago when I could take days off to spend time watching the imperceptible yet undoubted aging of my wall paint…Siiiigh! Seems a distant dream…a bittersweet memory even. But seriously, I’m on tender hooks. This hectic schedule just doesn’t fit in with my tender Libran sensibilities. I’m going to wait out this week and then just reassess the situation. I’ve had no time to paint, to write..(this blog may be good for random readings but serious literature it just ain’t!!) ..hell I’ve had no time to scratch my arse! I’m giving myself pedicures…cos the damn parlour is shut by the time I get there! There has to be an end to such hardship! So the countdown begins now. Hopefully by the end of this week I’ll be back to being the carefree whimsical lovable..(optimistic??) nut I was!

But on a brighter note, yesterday was spent basking in the warm sunlight, sipping cold beer, watching gorgeous men on gorgeous animals chase a ball! Went to the finals of the Polo matches yesterday and boy was there some eye candy or what! Ok so it was marred by the occasional spurts of work..(..my company sponsored the event!) but lovely nonetheless! Saturday night saw us revisiting the “Hookah” Bar and strangely enough Djinns! The last time I was there was when I’d first moved to Delhi 4 years ago..(and neels can attest to some mighty strange adventures indeed)…but that’s another story for another blog!!

Well it’s back to the old grind now so I guess this is it. More when it happens…

Me me me me

Monday Meme 26 : 2005-11-14 : Survivor

1. List 5 people you'd want with you if you were stranded on a deserted island:
Hmmm..lemme see.. colin farrell...that gorgeous man i met yesterday with the massive forearms... Sting.. Nish & Varsha (..on the condition that i don't have to share the men...hehehhe)

2. What 4 cds would you want with you (supposing you had a boom box)?
Since i don't need my Sting Cd's i guess it'd have to be Lennox, Bjork, and two cds of mp3s.

3. What 3 survival items would you want to bring?
My zippo, my swissknife and my pedicure kit.

4. What 2 food/beverage items would you miss the most?
The fondue at Diva and the excellent dimsum brunch at taipan.

5. What is the 1 thing you'd miss the least?
Routine!!!!

I was the 395th person to take this week's Monday Meme!

Dancing shoes!

Feel the need to let my hair down tonight! Am trying to get the riffraff together! Cheers!

Am I?

There are some points in life when you need to sit back and re-evaluate your choices. I mean…that may sound like a line from one of those self-help books I’m always making fun of, but it ain’t! It’s just that over the past few weeks, maybe even months! I’ve been thinking about my life and its course and whether I’ve made the right decisions. So here’s how it is...

I’ve been skirting the issue for a while now and I guess I needed to get my act together. I’ve been so besotted with over simplifying my life that I forgot that it’s just no fun that way! I think I’m finally ready for complications…I think I may even be craving some! Secondly (And trust me this is one of the hardest things to admit!) I’m missing a family. A bunch of people, kinks and all that I can fight and squabble and be crazy with and who’ll love me anyways! I’ve been too wild for too long..(in the most puritan sense of the word there is!) and its time for me to get sorted out. Also its been ages since I made a list so I need to get to it!

Here’s my game plan.

1) Sleep 8 hours a day
2) Exercise! (..this bit I’ve figured out!)
3) Party only three night of the week. (I’d make it two but hell! A girl’s got to live a little!)
4) Be open…to possibilities..(before my wise-ass cousin decides to elaborate!)
5) Get organized! Starting this week I’m going to get my house in order and keep it that way!
6) Read all my books. The recent spate of work has had me neglecting my babies and that’s just not done!!
7) Clean out my wardrobe.
8) Start cooking at home. It’s amazing how cooking for one can just zap all your enthusiasm.
9) Buy sexy underwear. It’s just a thong thing..hhheheheh!
10) Paint!!! Again just blame it on work!
11) Write! Need to be published before I hit the big three-ooh!

So that’s that! Hopefully should be able to check stuff off the list starting next week. Until then, buh-bye!

Four Movies and a Shoot ...

Have been doing the whole movie thingy this last week…saw Closer, Van Helsing, Blade 3, Girl Interrupted (again!) and bits of Mystic River (talk about depressing…Clint Eastwood is just tooooo fartsy for me!) and it’s only Saturday! Loved Van Helsing. That Hugh Jackman sure is one juicy chunk of man meat!!!

Closer was interesting enough albeit a little disjointed. Natalie Portman comes in from America to London, has an accident and meets Jude Law, who then meets Julia Roberts, who then marries Clive Owen..(who she first meets…or didn’t I mention that?) while she’s still fooling around with Law who then leaves Portman..(who he’s now married to) who then goes back to stripping and sleeps with Owen who then gets back with Roberts who leaves Law after which Portman finally goes back to America. Didja get that? Two mixed up couples and a veritable plethora of bad relationships and attitudes. Some scenes though were very well handled. Portman did a fabulous job playing a young stripper. Five stars ...out of ten!

Girl, Interupted is just a classic and merits it's own review in its own little posting so thats a story for another day and Blade 3...what can I say? I just adore the whole "lets-wear-our-tightest-leather-pants-and-go-kick-some-vampire-butt" thingy these guys do!

Oooh, oh …and there’s this other really amusing incident that happened that I must report. Met this Exec from Sahara Tv who’d come in to do a shoot at the Hotel. So here I am with Shalini standing around keeping her company, making small talk when suddenly she decides that “being single girls” as we both were, was the topic du jour.

Miss Congeniality (identity changed for fuck’s sake) : You know what my biggest problem with men is?
Shal : What?
Miss C : I want to know why so many of them are unable to give me an orgasm!
Mee : (running hand through hair that’s run astray from bending to pick my jaw up off the floor) Gasp!
Miss C : No I mean really. I need my “O”! I want my “O”! Seriously. “If I don’t get my ‘O’, you’re out the door”
Shal : So I’m assuming you don’t currently have a boyfriend…
Miss C : Yea well you know I’m not currently on any loyalty program. I was seeing this guy, you know, for two years, but that was a few years ago. So now I’ve got my priority right…Me!
Shal : (sympathetic…she’s the original Drama Queen!) Aww.. What happened?
Miss C : He just dumped me. Said I was too immature.
Shal & Mee : (exchanging “TheLook”) *Gasp* Noooooooooo!

We were rescued, many many sordid minutes later, by the spot boy telling her the sets were ready. After which we promptly went back to our office and spent the better part of 15 minutes giggling about it. It just takes all kinds I guess!

Also must proudly report that “stalker boy” has stopped msging. After weeks and weeks of unrequited Good Mornings, Good Evenings and Sweet Dreams he’s finally gone and given up. Men these days I tell you! No staying power! ( I’m sure Miss C will agree with me on that one..hehehehe!)

So that’s all that’s been happening this week. More when it happens. Moochas smoochas!

All those free lunches!

So yesterday my boss and I decided to go check out the HotPot at Ego Thai, a fabulouso Thai food joint at Friends Colony Market. We had the Noodle Soup and followed it up with some awesome Pad Thai, grilled fish in a pepper and garlic sauce and a nice spicy red curry. Dessert was Banana fritters and coconut ice-cream…so that pretty much undid my frenzied morning workout!

On the way out though we passed what appeared to be a little mandir…with a bottle of Pepsi in lieu of an offering. What’s more is the bottle of Pepsi even had a straw in it!! Here’s a picture of the “Thai Mata” and her bottle of Pepsi! (I think she gets Mirinda on the weekends…you know, a little variety! Hehehehe)



That’s all for now folks! Toodelooo!

Doing the "Do"

I did it!! I finally did! Got myself out of bed at 7 this morning and hit the gym! My palms are pretttty red from high-fiving myself I can tell you! 20 mins on the treadmill, 20 on the exercycle, 15 mins of crunches, butt-presses and other sundry and 10 mins in the sauna….aaaaaaaaaaahhhhh! Now if only I can keep it up there’ll be cause for celebration. The weekend was blissfully uneventful and after all that frenzied activity during the holiday season, I finally got a chance to catch up on weeks of interrupted sleep. So now it’s back to work with a vengeance. More when it happens…

Dumb in Delhi...

Didn’t end up going to the club last night…just needed to be in warm bed cuddled up with good book. So instead I was up last night reading what so far (..I’m on page 98) promises to be an excellent book, “On Beauty” by Zadie Smith. The book is fraught with wisdom and nuances that seem to be written by someone a lot more advanced in years than the 30 year old author. She’s articulate, exuberant and slapstick subtle…(complete paradox, I know!) It was my birrday gift from the most fabulous Nish-pish..(thanks baby..I pwomise to bwings it backs for yous to wead!)

Anyways, I figured I’d re-acquaint myself with the Gym today after my Diwali sabbatical and so, with uncharacteristic bravado set my alarm for 7..(..yea..talk about not knowing yourself!!..middle of the night! Duh!) and packed a gym bag which, after my customary hour of hitting the snooze button this morning, came back with me untouched from work. Will definitely do the “do” tomorrow…

Also managed to find two more pics of the Nish-pish on my phone..(proof that she was indeed in Delhi!!) I mean she lugged her new Canon all the way from Bombay and had it in her bag the whole time and all we have for evidence is these three little images on my phone!! Talk about “Dumb in Delhi” revisited! There’s one of mah lil domestic goddess buying (ech!) fruit and one of us one the card table..(courtesy Tarun). She’s off gallivanting with the fam on the the beaches of Alibagh even as I type this blog.

More when it happens…

...whew!

So Diwali's all done. Nish has come and gone. There seems to be nothing to look forward to right this minute....why do the good times go by so quickly??!!? On a happy note though i'm winning this season...call it beginners luck if you will. My washing machine hasn't been delivered yet so I’m stuck trying to coordinate between work and getting the delivery guys and the plumber to stick to their end of the bargain. Siiiigh! Also was given a World Space receiver by Krix the Intrepid pilot ..(that nish so sweetly lugged all the way from b'bay for me....hand-baggage no less mind you!) so will have that up by the weekend too hopefully.

Planning to go to the Delhi Gym this evening. After two months of cards its going to be a welcome change! Buh-bye now!

....going out of my mind bored now!!!

Ok so the last test I did for me and now I'm posting Varsha's test results....I'm so restless it's unbelievable!! As someone rightly said... (and I quote) "SHIT, FUCK, BUGGER, BUM, BALLS!!!!!!"


Jung Personality Type Test Result - ESTJ

Extroverted (E) 59.46%
Introverted (I) 40.54%
Sensing (S) 69.23%
Intuitive (N) 30.77%
Thinking (T) 57.14%
Feeling (F) 42.86%
Judging (J) 86.21%
Perceiving (P) 13.79%

ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population

Character Traits

organized, group oriented, focused, leader, emotionally stable, attention seeking, planner, realistic, fearless, responsible, finisher, decisive, norm following, punctual, hard working, self confident, follows the rules, clean, outgoing, social, content, does not like being alone, normal, regular, does not like weird or strange people / things - intolerant of differences, strict, disciplined, aggressive, assertive, content, happy, proper, formal

Favored Careers:

executive, ceo, supervisor, business consultant, manager, strategist, financial planner, business person, office manager, public relations manager, international business specialist, business analyst, management consultant, operations manager, loan officer, lawyer, marketing, sports management, government employee, investment banker

Disfavored Careers:

poet, artist, songwriter, musician, novelist, art therapist, theatre teacher, art curator, film editor, video game designer, photo journalist, travel writer, actor, record store owner, camera operator, art historian, music teacher

...now i'm just plain bored!!!

Jung Personality Type Test Result - ENTP

Extroverted (E) 59.52%
Introverted (I) 40.48%
Intuitive (N) 61.54%
Sensing (S) 38.46%
Thinking (T) 51.22%
Feeling (F) 48.78%
Perceiving (P) 68.75%
Judging (J) 31.25%


"Inventor". Enthusiastic interest in everything and always sensitive to possibilities. Non-conformist and innovative. 3.2% of the total population.

Character Traits

risk taker, easy going, outgoing, social, open, rule breaker, thrill seeker, life of the party, comfortable in unfamiliar situations, appreciates strangeness, disorganized, adventurous, talented at presentation, aggressive, attention seeking, experience junky, insensitive, adaptable, not easily offended, messy, carefree, dangerous, fearless, careless, emotionally stable, spontaneous, improviser, always joking, player, wild and crazy, dominant, acts without thinking, not into organized religion, pro-weed legalization

Fovored Careers:

dictator (buuuauauauauauahahahhaaa), computer consultant, international spy, tv producer, philosopher, comedian, music performer, it consultant, figher pilot, politician, diplomat, entertainer, game designer, bar owner, freelance writer, creative director, strategist, news anchor, professional skateboarder, airline pilot, comic book artist, college professor, private detective, mechanical engineer, lecturer, ambassador, astronomer, research scientist, judge, web developer, scholar, fbi agent, cia agent, electrical engineer, assassin

Disfavored Careers:

personal assistant, wedding planner, travel agent, secretary, interior decorator, clerical employee, government employee, social worker, pre school teacher, copy editor, child care worker, hospitality worker, occupational therapist, home maker

...still waiting...

Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 50% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||| 50% Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||||| 70% Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||| 22% Type 5 Detachment |||||||||| 38% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||| 30% Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 66% Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||| 70% Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||||| 78% Your main type is 9 Your variant is sexual

Main Type	Overall Self

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Well...colour me pink!!!!

So I took a colour test while waiting for a certain someone to come online and here are the results. More about Nish's most recent Delhi Adventure later...:D

Rashmee's Existing Situation
Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily aroused by the unusual or the adventurous. (...this bit's actually kinda true ...)

Rashmee's Stress Sources
Has the need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. This subjects her to considerable stress, but she sticks to her attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Finds the situation uncomfortable and would like to break away from it, but refuses to compromise with her opinions. Unable to resolve the situation because she continually postpones making the necessary decision as she doubts her ability to withstand the opposition which would result. Needs the esteem of others, compliance with her wishes, and respect for her opinions before she can feel at ease and secure. (..I guess some part of me just wants to be luuuurrrrvvved...:P)

Rashmee's Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship with great depth of feeling. Feels that she is burdened with more than her fair share of problems. However, she sticks to her goals and tries to overcome her difficulties by being flexible and accommodating. She is able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity. (hehehahhahahahahaha...satisfaction guaranteed baby!)

Rashmee's Desired Objective
Strives for a life rich in activity and experience with exaggerated intensity, and for a close bond offering sexual and emotional fulfillment. (Hell! So who isn't??!!??)

Rashmee's Actual Problem
The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity. She reacts with an intense and zealous activity designed to achieve her aims at all costs.. (hmmmmmmmmmm......)

Rashmee's Actual Problem #2
Takes a delight in action and wants to be respected and esteemed for her personal accomplishments. (So far I've still to achieve the whole "being a morning person" thingy..:P)

They can tell all this from the order in which you pick colours. Close? Well you tell me!!

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